Taking time…

When you finally let your self wedge out a piece of time for meditation do you find that you are making your self do it?  Do you put it off thinking “I know that I should meditate” but I’ve got to do this chore first and then I’ll sit down, or I’ve only got 10 minutes that’s not long enough so why start.  Also, what about that your mind wanders and or you simply can’t get centered and stay in your self to focus on your self?  These are but a few blocks to getting to that meditation space.  Meditation isn’t a fix it project.  It isn’t a scored assignment either.  Nor does it have to be the place of centeredness where you think you are going to get insight for your life direction (though you could).  That is some big pressure put on the process of meditating.  Your mind can wander and notice that, then just come back to where you are sitting.  You can go over your “laundry list” and just notice that you are feeling something about the list.  Does the list make you anxious or you would rather just get to it and get it done and off you mind?  Is there an expectation from meditating that the act of doing this will fix your money situation, relationship situation, health or something going on at work?  It isn’t a process that it fixes something, it is a process for you to get into your self with out any expectation that something has to be resolved so it goes away.  It is just that, a process.  When you give yourself more than 10 minutes to invest in just noticing that you are feeling something (like you want to get up and start moving as fast as the speed of light) this is part of you noticing.  You want to go so you don’t have to stay and do the work (discipline).  You might want some magical spark of something that hits you like a bolt of lightening but you your self do not want to stay present and do the work.  It does take work to figure out what and who you are.  So, if you invest 5 extra minutes a day to the start time of say 10 minutes in a week you’ll be  able to meditate for 45 minutes. Just notice what you are thinking and why.  That’s all. Don’t make it into something mystical and when that doesn’t happen your disappointed in the process.  Stay grounded, do the work, Rita